this week i

(1) Autodidact with khanacademy.org.  The best website on the internet, this project eclipses all other endeavors financed in Sal Khan Valley combined.



(1) Install the Mozilla Firefox web browser.  On every networked device - laptop, tablet, phone - set then maintain this application as default browser.

(2) Install Firefox extensions uBlock Origin and Privacy Badger.  These add-ons disappear spam banners & video advertisements that haunt other apps.



(1) Install a fresh linux operating system on old computer equipment.  Start with an outdated laptop and also either a SD card or a USB stick.  Flash any linux OS image (for example, `ubuntu-##.##-desktop-amd64.iso`) onto the SD card or the USB stick with a program like balenaEtcher.  Direct the old laptop's BIOS to the SD card or the USB stick and then format & encrypt the laptop's disk with a fresh password-protected install.

(2) Install ollama and four models.  Connect to a wifi network with the old laptop, open one terminal window & install ollama, open four more terminal windows (ctrl+alt+T) & run one `ollama pull` command in each window, and finally permanently disconnect from wifi & reboot.

    curl -fsSL https://ollama.com/install.sh | sh

    ollama pull gemma3
    ollama pull llama3
    ollama pull mistral
    ollama pull gpt-oss

(3) Engage in question & answer with algorithms, unsurveilled.  Verify no internet connection on the old laptop.  Open four terminal windows, type each `ollama run` command into one window.  Use ctrl+shift+C & ctrl+shift+V to copy & paste inquiries into four large language models, offline.

    ollama run gemma3
    ollama run llama3
    ollama run mistral
    ollama run gpt-oss

this week i

read after martha by paul laity

there hadn't been someone with overall responsibility for her care

there is nothing to blame here apart from the fates

passed the buck to the next day's doctor

this was an eminently survivable injury

an institution suffering a nervous breakdown

had written something about the ways in which her practice should improve, and completed an e-module on sepsis

he had recently attended several conferences and given a 'state of the art lecture' in amsterdam.  since martha's death, he had been receiving plaudits and enjoying research success.  another professor went so far as to say in a statement that any 'adverse findings' against the consultant would have a 'significant impact on the evolution of liver medicine'

with complete shame for our profession

boilerplate regrets

 

read "a suggestion of a fundamental nature": imagining a legal education of solely electives taught as discussions by christophe g. courchesne

in favor of oval wooden tables, uniformly smaller classes of about twelve students

most large doctrinal classes now lack the power to do what socrates himself suggested was the project of education

student-centered discussion the dominant pedagogy

an academic semester-long performance

schools could be profoundly better places

the questionable wisdom of several years of largely passive memorization

[a] professional faculty that has lost interest in most of the work of its alumni has also lost interest in its students

the introduction of a de-centered and collaborative pedagogy built on a simple piece of furniture - an oval table seating thirteen

professors who have seldom, if ever, experienced a genuinely participatory small-group discussion

the miracle of structured discussion

a training in the responsibilities of the self that resist the contemporary tendencies towards nihilism and authoritarianism alike

for effective discussion should be no more than thirteen and no less than nine 

 

11/6 

this week i

hosted survey methods workshop at the philly free library thinking of this essay.  cannot reflect emojis but this position aches neckbones 💪🙂💪

 

10/30

this week i

read suttree by cormac mccarthy.  who would have guessed that midcentury riverboat dwellers near knoxville were all scoundrels without exception
 
lord honey i know they make that old splo in the bathtub but this here is made in the toilet

you aint goin to believe this.
knowin you for a born liar i most probably wont.
somebody has been fuckin my watermelons

suttree sat down on the concrete floor and held his stomach.  he sat there shaking and holding himself.  you're a real nutwagon, aint ye? said the bondsman

shit a brick, he said.  i didnt want the goddamned thing that bad.  a legless beggar mounted on a board like a piece of ghastly taxidermy had come awake to laugh at him.  fuck you, said harrogate.  the beggar shot forward on ballbearing wheels and seized harrogate's leg and bit it

gatemouth says a possum dont have a forked peter, oceanfrog told the store.
i never, said gatemouth.  i said he dont screw her in the nose.
what's his peter forked for then?
cause he's a marsuperal, motherfucker.
oceanfrog laughed deep in the back of his throat.  shiny tombstone teeth, gums coral pink.  shit man, he said.  you completely eat up with the dumb-ass.
ask suttree.
i dont know, said suttree.
he dont want the whole river to know what a fuckin dumb-ass you is, said oceanfrog

the ballad of jack-off jake the poolroom snake who fucked his way north to duluth

dont pint ye fanger ye'll scare him

a colony of treestumps like beached squid drying grayly in the sun

a chandelier lay burst in the floor

old paint on an old sign said dimly to keep out.  someone must have turned it around because it posted the outer world.  he went on anyway.  he said that he was only passing through

a long gray sock appeared.  the top of it had been fitted with an old brass pursecatch and he unsnapped it and dropped in the coins and lowered it back where it had come from

take it easy, gene.  there's no prize at the bottom of the plate

that was in nineteen and thirty-one and if i live to be a hunnerd year old i dont think i'll ever see anything as pretty as that train on fire goin up that mountain and around the bend and them flames lightin up the snow and the trees and the night

why you crawfishin son of a bitch

in the morning he set out with them.  a light heart and deep rejoicing for the fortune of it made the load less heavy yet he still must rest here and there by the streetside.  by such stages he labored out central avenue small and bowed and wildlooking.
what you got in the sack son?
he peered from under the load at his inquisitor lounging in the open window of the halted cruiser.  he shifted the weight a little higher on his shoulder.  bats, he said

how did you do it?  poison forty-two bats.  they only feed on the wing

did you poison scraps of meat and then shoot them in the air?

drink some mash and talk some trash

she was a hunnerd and two when she died.
she looks almost that old in the picture.
she's dead in the picture

we're all fucked, said the ragman

follow the trade that you favor and you'll have no regrets in your old age

i wouldnt take a war pension for this dog, said the old man

in the gutted rooms sad quaking sots are waking to the problem of the sunday morning drink

suttree went up the street and fetched the glass from where it lay limp and shattered in the gutter and brought it back and put it in the trunk and got in and started the motor and pulled away.  they were going out cumberland when she began to tear up the money.  he heard a handful of it rip and looked in time to see a green confetti swirl away in the slipstream

of what would you repent?
nothing.
nothing?
one thing.  i spoke with bitterness about my life and i said that i would take my own part against the slander of oblivion and against the monstrous facelessness of it and that i would stand a stone in the very void where all would read my name.  of that vanity i recant all.

if she dont make a payment by the tenth up he comes

he rocked in the swells, floating like the first germ of life adrift on the earth's cooling seas, formless macule of plasm trapped in a vapor drop and all creation yet to come

it was in 1884.
did he die by natural causes?
no sir.
and what were the circumstances surrounding his death.
he was taking part in a public function when the platform gave way.
our information is that he was hanged for a homicide.
yessir.
are you aware of the penalty fixed upon conviction of lycanthropy?

the turtlemonger held forth his sack

a few pieces of denver silver.  avowing blind faith in deaf deities



10/23

this week i

asked the cat in the window the building across who'd painted kalorama roof rack mouse dreamsicle.  just like billy sunday in a shotgun ragtime band

 

10/16

this week i

'm like 12% better than a.i., makes allll the difference. motorcycles replaced horses, sedans replaced sedans. what's jumping the shark mean to you?

remember saying a prohibited word. "i'm going to wash your filthy mouth" and mom chased me round the house with the bar of soap till we collapsed in laughter. rebels to the core, after every visit to the dentist's chair, we chewed ice cubes together just because. truckin' driving with no place to go

 

10/9 

this week i

pointed at a zebra print something or other and was like that's zebra print and e-z was like no, that's siberian tiger print.  his mom says he's funny and she's right.  birthday week-end with the memes of the ancients, a 2nd most famous leonardo in history movie, and a bus ride to the countryside
 



10/2

this week i

respect skunks, never been phfffsshhhed, hope never to be phfffsshhhed.  would blinking skunk emoji next to check engine light increase compliance?

found our $12.7 billion on page eight.  the sun king's grandma a medici and so coat of arms avec fleur-de-lis.  who should i nominate?  how about you?

read peter paul rubens: the drawings by anne-marie logan in collaboration with michiel c. plomp

ironically, rubens's native soil can't boast of any major holdings of the artist's drawings or those of his pupils.  this essay will follow the diaspora of the work of the great flemish draftsman.  it will be a journey through several centuries and various countries, among collectors of all ranks.  above all, it will be an encounter with the history of taste

the drawings which he had collected and made he ordered to be held and preserved for the benefit of any of his sons who want to follow him in the art of painting, or, failing such, for the benefit of any of his daughters who might marry a recognized painter; thus they should be kept until the youngest of his children should have reached his eighteenth year.  if by that time none of his sons should have followed him in his art and none of his daughters should have married a recognized painter, the drawings should be sold and the receipts divided in the same manner as his other assets

the famous spinaro, a roman copy after a greek original of a boy pulling a thorn from his foot

 

inscribed by the artist in pen and brown ink at top left: socrates procul dubio (socrates without doubt); at top right: xantippe quae somachatur / vide os columnatum (xantippe in one of her moods / see her pillared face)  annotated in pen and brown ink at the bottom left: rubbens

"vide os columnatum" (look how the bone resembles a column)

rubens's drawings of the centaur are of special interest since they show the statue in its unrestored state and are the oldest known records of it: cupid's arms and wings, and the centaur's arms and right foreleg, are missing, while a sculpted tree trunk was apparently added below the centaur's belly for support

in a.d. 65 the emperor nero forced seneca, his former tutor, to commit suicide for alleged participation in a conspiracy against him.  seneca obliged by opening his veins so that he would bleed to death.  however, as the blood did not flow quickly because of old age, he also took poison, and finally stood in a tub of hot water to accelerate the process.  while performing the act, he assembled his friends around him and called for a scribe to dictate a long discourse..only in the late 18th century was it realized that the sculpture represents neither the famous stoic philosopher nor a dying man

"in order to attain the highest perfection in painting, it is necessary to understand the antiquities [i.e., antique sculpture], nay, to be so thoroughly possessed of this knowledge, that it may diffuse itself everywhere"

susanna can be understood as a symbol either of chastity or of silence, since she did not speak up to declare her innocence

rubens offered a painting of susanna, calling it a "galanteria," whose subject was "[neither] sacred nor profane although taken from the holy scriptures"

with the executioner sheathing his sword

samson and delilah, now in london, hung in the large parlor room (de groote saleth) of the rockox house on the keizerstraat.  frans francken ii (1582-1642) depicted it in his painting banquet at the house of burgomaster rockox, where it appears prominently over the mantelpiece

christopher - from christophorus, meaning "bearer of christ" (according to legend, christopher carried the christ child on his back across a river)

lapide might have asked rubens to modify the traditional representation of moses in accordance with his discussion in the commentaria in pentateuchum mosis of the true meaning of the original hebrew text.  (moses's horns derive from jerome's incorrect latin translation of this passage.)  the anonymous engraver, however, did not respect this interpretation

it pleased him ("wollgefellig")

the ox skull between the cornucopiae in the cartouche at the bottom is a reference to piety, a symbol rubens must have known from reading guillame du choul's then-popular discours de la religion des anciens romains

fist-fighting angels

rubens's large crucifixion of christ with thieves altarpiece of 1620, generally known as the coup de lance..roman centurion longinus, on horseback, pierces christ's right side with a lance to verify that he is dead

it has been said that, after rubens's death, helena fourment destroyed "nudities" in her husband's work


9/25

this week i

fill on vegan recipe: one can salt-free beans in water, one avocado, onions, garlic, tomatoes, olive oil, shenandoah spice company berbere to taste.  hoping, waiting for king kong to climb right up the tower eiffel.  what's your favorite thing about today?  mine's that yes and yeah are oui and ouais

9/18

this week i

presented at the royal statistical society to whoever might listen.  i want to do some geospatial analysis of where people are sitting in the room
 

possess the technology, so how does direct overthrow representative democracy?  and it's ascent into anarchy.  now please stop biting the spice rack

aspire to be the most charismatic of all the megafauna.  with me podium medaling: hot mic vampire wannabes, penguins dancing up the wrong pole
 
wonder how wake of the flood fared.  should adjuster ask why i have johnson & johnson wild flossers lifetime supply, my ready reply: why don't you?

 
roll such heavy boulders up the mountains great and tall / but sneak my rest while tasked to mount a seal with a beach ball ðŸ¥ˆ sisyphean songbook
 
north sea dreamed hazy details debate, woke quarreling. alarm: beep me: no you're wrong  next generation already pilots canals, no argument there

 

read the 100 most influential books ever written: the history of thought from ancient times to today by martin seymour-smith

 there is certainly no room here for the archdunce dawkins

the i ching really originated in the 2nd millenium b.c.e., when the shang and chou people used turtle shells for divination.  heat was applied to the shells until they cracked, and the lines thus formed were "read"

the author of
the iliad..was very well aware that he was creating a legend

an awareness that injuries to either side of the head manifest in effects on the other side of the body

a pagan greek, his philosophy became the pillar of christian doctrine (but luther called him "stinking")

a born categorizer, we owe to him the very way we classify knowledge: with his huge library, one hundred and fifty-eight constitutions of greek states, his scientific specimens, he introduced logic, metaphysics, biology, meteorology, politics, ethics, rhetoric, psychology, and physics to the world.  it is here above all that he is not just a footnote to plato

all societies, with their religions, customs, traditions, and laws, have had their professional chroniclers or remembrancers.  many of those have been, and still are, professional liars, obedient bureaucrats, or "statisticians" - while others, mostly as ungifted, have done and still do their honest best

all poetry was resolutely banned from plato's ideal city

anarchy - used here in the broad sense of the idea that human beings could get on better without such things as flags (tolstoy called a flag a "dirty piece of rag on a stick"), the media, central governments of polite psychopaths

since possession of such books had by then been made into a criminal offense, some monk - between about 350 and 400 c.e., the date of the making of the books - hid them from the marauding soldiers of the church triumphant

is augustine's "god" no more than the hysterical projection of a passionately intelligent man who has finally given up on making sense of his life?

augustine is the key figure in the transition from pagan to christian philosophy, but is nonetheless more a theologian than a philosopher proper..he argued that election (to heaven) is by god's grace and therefore predestined; it was left to calvin (whose theology is peculiarly weak) to invent eternal and arbitrary hellfire

everything apart from love of the most beautiful god is anguish of spirit, even if it is sugar-eating

by 1323 he was canonized.  though he had not performed the necessary miracles to qualify for this, the pope simply pronounced that the answers he had given to each of the vexing questions was in itself a miracle

but erasmus would not change sides: he saw that the consequences would become as disastrous as their causes - as they very soon did in the person of the demonic calvin

the prince (il principe) was supposed by many to have been written by the devil himself

rabelais's method was laughter.  there is no laughter, there would be no reason for laughter, if life were reasonable and just

the rest of his life, travels apart, he spent in his library tower, which may be visited today.  on the walls of its small study he had engraved (in latin), "in the year of christ 1571 . . . michel de montaigne, long wearied of the courts and of public functions, while still in health, retires to the bosom of the learned virgins, where in quiet and security he hopes, if the fates allow, to pass what may be left him of a life already half spent, consecrating this ancestral dwelling and sweet retreat to his liberty and tranquility and leisure

in 1609, the year in which a crooked publisher issued a pirated edition of the
sonnets of shakespeare, kepler published the new astronomy..that mars moved around the sun not in a circle but in an ellipse (a figure regarded at that time as imperfect and inappropriate because it has two foci)..by 1619 in the harmony of the world, kepler could clearly enunciate all three of his laws: the last was that the square of a planet's year (the time it takes to orbit the sun) is proportional to the cube of its mean distance from the sun

je pense, donc je suis

no philosopher of any nationality has surpassed him in the writing of prose (only a very few, such as schopenhauer, have equaled him)

hobbes will only say that the worst despotism is better than anarchy (he means by this word total disorder, not what anarchists mean)

spinoza is the father of modern rational bible study.  he thought of jesus as no more than the last of the great hebrew prophets..he refused an offer of a chair of philosophy at heidelberg on the characteristic grounds that a philosopher needs to be independent

experimentation in science is uncertain simply because we can do no more than imitate nature when we test her alleged laws

it was
poetry, not philosophy, that the ancients had possessed

the church refused him burial, but he had prepared for that and so was buried surreptitiously in consecrated ground..in 1791 his remains were transferred, in triumph, to the parthenon

refusal to accept any kind of explanation of existence

in 1741 he met therese le vasseur, a hotel servant girl with whom he stayed for the rest of his life; he married her in 1768.  he had five children by her, all of whom he placed, to - as we read in the
confessions and elsewhere - his eternal and bitter regret, in the orphanage of the enfants-trouves

rousseau is not an anarchist

a thinking man's life must be a series of retractions

hegel was at the university of berlin from 1818 until his death in the cholera epidemic of 1831 (from which schopenhauer escaped)

his philosophy is precisely - this is its only precise feature - an account of the unknowable

(edmund burke gave an english definition of
schadenfreude when he wrote, in on the sublime and beautiful: "i am convinced that we have a degree of delight, and that no small one, in the real misfortunes and pains of others.")  schopenhauer shrewdly saw this as a further perversion of envy

søren said that "humanly speaking," he had been "insanely brought up"

he was himself constituted of a number of different and even warring selves

the philosophers have only interpreted the world in various ways, the point is to change it

is there maybe a kind of "logic of the heart" that does not resemble the logic of reason?

his paper was not rediscovered until 1900, thirty-four years after it had been published, and sixteen years after his death.  the discovery was made by hugo de vries, a dutch biologist then in his fifties, and by two others independently.  yet, fearsomely complex though the modern science genetics is, mendel's findings have on the whole stood up so remarkably well that he is universally regarded as its father.  it was not until his paper, with its clearly expressed mathematical arguments, was rediscovered that progress could be made in what was to become genetics

he freed, or tried to free, his serfs, who were not grateful to him and did not understand him

only to die shortly afterward at a railway station

nietzsche, as well as being quite astonishingly acute and wise, probably the greatest aphorist who ever lived, could all too often be - to use a rare word that is, however, simply too apt to avoid - horrisonous ("sounding horrible").  he had humor, irony, and wit; but with tact he dispensed entirely, as quite beneath contempt

a death wish, which represents freud's direct and well-acknowledged debt to schopenhauer

the man who became his greatest rival, on the grounds that freud exaggerated the importance of sex over spirituality, carl gustav jung, had a good deal more varied experience of it as an extramarital activity

neither of these men, to the considerable irritation of some psychologists, were qualified psychologists

little of it is really original, but jung was one of those (like freud himself in psychology or adam smith and keynes in economics) who can sum up the concerns of an era at a stroke, and in a convincing manner

it is not altogether fanciful to see wiener's work as a whole as an effort to defeat chaos, or, rather, to limit its influence.  his own philosophy, considering who and what he was, has been somewhat neglected.  for, although he was not a philosopher, his work continually impinged upon what philosophy at least ought to be

it has even been reliably shown that the crime rate in particular communities has been substantially improved by the practice of transcendental meditation


9/11

this week i

saw ambulance with the word upside down rather than reflected.  ugandans say eh like canadians, describe wealthier neighborhoods as organized in the same tone as ray liotta assures lorraine bracco.  claire showed me shoebills, lungfish, her best cormorant drying wings in the sunshine impression 











9/4 

this week i

published among elderly & disabled americans with medicare, out-of-pocket medical expenses consumed more than a third of social security income
 
drew grey breasted mountain toucan triptych, yellow highlighter + the four-way pen next time.  for traffic light st pete, would yellow be purgatory?
 



met a couple dozen people in about as many days.  on tree-hugged cafe steps, gregory sported a v. cool jacket, wishes greetings to the r community




 

think "we've done more work & we're worse off for it" eating corn dishes prepared ways other than exploded.  also far tastier than kablammo potato 


read a history of religious ideas, volume 3: from muhammad to the age of reforms by mircea eliade, translated by hiltebeitel & apostolos-cappadona

 

 in his celebrated discussion with the imam of boukhara, genghis khan said to him: "the entire universe is the house of god, to what advantage is it to designate a particular place (for example, mecca) in order to go there?"

on the solarization of celestial gods, see eliade, patterns

their polycephalic representations of divinities and spirits

as augustine proclaims in his famous sermon: roma non pereat si romani non pereant!  in other words, it is the quality of men which assures the permanence of an institution, and not the inverse

"move not thy tongue with it to hasten it; ours it is to gather, and to recite it, so when we recite it, follow thou its recitation" (75:16-18).  in other words, all personal improvisation of the quran is prohibited

they accused the scholastics of having sacrificed religion to philosophy, and christ to aristotle

the procession of flagellants multiplied themselves in order to move god to pity

the kallikantzari, monsters who haunt greek villages during the twelve days (between christmas and epiphany) and who prolong the mythico-ritual scenario of the centaurs of classical antiquity

and they chew as much garlic as possible

autochthonous

 lutheranism has been "from its beginning the child of book printing": with the help of this vehicle, luther was able to transmit his message with force and precision from one end of europe to the other

the accused publically threw a copy of this bull into the fire, and published, one after another, four books which rank among the most brilliant and most important of his total work

june 1522, martin luther wrote: "i do not admit that my doctrine can be judged by anyone, even by the angels.  one who does not receive my doctrine cannot come to salvation"..his violent intolerance reflects the zeal of yahweh and the latter's jealousy with regard to humankind

when luther's theses were declared heretical, erasmus retorted that an error is not necessarily a heresy, and asked catholic theologians to respond to luther's interpretations rather than condemn them.  because he proclaimed the necessity of dialogue, erasmus was accused - first by luther, then by rome - of "neutralism," indeed of a lack of courage

above all, the shamanic type of tambourine 


8/28 

this week i

plucked abandoned weaver nest with mande on the river nile.  evolution missed wheels, what else?  the geckos view old world simians like us and whisper: how embarrassed they must be / that with their tails cannot sip tea  that crake does not swim.  do angels and demons fantasize about one another?  kingfisher divebomber, more hits than misses.  are making a mountain out of a molehill and making an ant out of an anthill antonyms?












 


yawn at these westminster dog & rocketry shows.  lmk robotics folks when you figure out a massage chair distinguishable from my cell's vibrate mode

set your tail on fire.  would we exchange temporary clemency for a drag?  for more cenacolo tobacco, see chernobyl episode one, treme episode nine

save the ropes & caviars
for my friends behind these bars
 
no thanks gov'ner, save your queen
twice sliced cake & guillotine
 
soul departure / last meal pack
mercy 'nough, my djarum black

 

read alice's adventures in wonderland and through the looking-glass by lewis carroll.  and so another talefull of tea

 

the poor little lizard, bill

 

  'i speak severely to my boy,
i beat him when he sneezes;
for he can thoroughly enjoy
the pepper when he pleases!'
 
chorus
'wow! wow! wow!'

 

and this time it vanished quite slowly, beginning with the end of the tail, and ending with the grin, which remained some time after the rest of it had gone

 

'take some more tea,' the march hare said to alice, very earnestly.
'i've had nothing yet,' alice replied in an offended tone, 'so i can't take more.'
'you mean you can't take less,' said the hatter: 'it's very easy to take more than nothing'

 

alice thought she had never seen such a curious croquet-ground in all her life; it was all ridges and furrows; the balls were live hedgehogs, the mallets live flamingoes, and the soldiers had to double themselves up and to stand on their hands and feet, to make the arches

 

you're nothing but a pack of cards

 

nurse!  do let's pretend that i'm a hungry hyæna, and you're a bone!

 

let me see, is this a chair?  why, it's got branches, i declare!

 

if he smiled much more, the ends of his mouth might meet behind

 

and now, if e'er by chance i put
my fingers into glue,
or madly squeeze a right-hand foot
into a left-hand shoe,
or if i drop upon my toe
a very heavy weight,
i weep, for it reminds me so,
of that old man i used to know --
...
that summer evening, long ago,
a-sitting on a gate 

 

life, what is it but a dream?

 

8/21

this week i

etch a sketch momentary self-governance goals: if laptop closed, then ball & chain remains in airplane mode unless mobile data use premeditated.  new restaurant etiquette (per course) me: what are your two favorite choices? / waitstaff: [option one] and [option two] / me: [decide immediately]

what if you started spelling your name togna like bologna
i'm not immediately against this idea

 

saw birds of paradise just like mom used to paint, murchison falls n.p. with sowedi. if a giraffe's head is down, it is sick or dead. they sleep like gods
 



















adjust travel plans, discuss expertise, make an r with our hands
 

8/14